Last December I was put on bed rest for 3 weeks after a reaction to IVF treatment I had been having. I won’t lie, for the duration of those 3 weeks I felt awful. I couldn’t do anything, and nor did I feel like doing anything. All of the blog posts and photoshoots I’d planned went out the window. I accepted that my follower numbers would decline but I didn’t mind, as at that point in time all I wanted to do was focus on getting myself better.
Getting back into it
Looking back, as shit as it was being in pain and on bedrest, I am so thankful for those 4 weeks of having time off of Social Media and blogging. I fully recharged and was ready to jump back in come January. Amazingly, my followers hadn’t deserted me and my numbers had stayed pretty much the same all month. I started posting on Instagram again and the weirdest thing happened… only then did my followers drop. Drastically. I pretty much lost 60 followers over night. I couldn’t understand it… surely I couldn’t be offending that many people?! Someone on Twitter suggested it could be Bots that are programmed to unfollow people when they post their first photo after following them. I won’t lie, I became obsessed again… I wanted to up my game and come back with a bang but felt so discouraged.
Ever since January, my Instagram numbers have been very sporadic. 3 weeks ago, I thought I’d finally cracked it. I gained over 70 followers in 4 days. My life was pretty interesting that week, I managed to post on my stories, and I had the time to fully engage with other accounts and discover more amazing people to follow. This week it has been a different story. I have been doing the same but I’ve lost 30 followers in 2 days.
Realising what matters
I have always been envious of bloggers who are obviously more organised than me. You know the ones who post amazing content every day not only on their grids but on their stories too. Unfortunately, the fact is, my life isn’t that glamorous! I work 9 – 5 in an office. I get home at the end of the day, tired, and most days don’t fancy picking up my laptop to spend more time in front of a computer screen. At weekends I like to relax and spend time with my husband without my nose stuck in my phone all of the time… and because of this I forget to post on Instagram/ Twitter etc. Or sometimes, can’t even be bothered.
In order to do this and have a bit of normalisation in my life, I’ve had to accept that my numbers aren’t going to go up quickly. And you know what? That’s ok. If it means I have a better mental wellbeing then I am totally fine with that. If someday I’m able to pack it all in and do this full time then it will go further up my priority list. For now, I know that I will still be targeted by bots and the people who follow and then unfollow but that’s fine too. I can sniff them out a mile away. As long as I am staying true to myself and doing things that make me happy then I am content.
Do you agree? Or are you a bit more socially driven than me?!
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